Remember my 500 Dollar Month Project, where I spent only that much money for a whole entire month so that we could put a down payment down on a vacation to The Outer Banks?
Well... we made it, baby. We're leaving in just a few weeks for a whole week of beautiful, empty beaches, quaint nautical island life and picnics in the sand.
Except that Daddy isn't coming with us.
The part I didn't expect when booking this vacation a year ago is that Kurt might have a new job at a fancy pantsy university and he's only been there for one month and there is NO WAY he could even think about asking for a week off.
So, we're going on a girl's trip. 13 hours in a car and no daddy. A week sleeping in an unfamiliar place with no daddy.
This isn't how I planned things. This was supposed to be our very first family vacation that we paid for and took all on our own. It was supposed to be Kurt's chance to learn what is so awesome about these particular beaches. We were supposed to sit around a fire next to the ocean and hold hands and marvel over how perfect everything is.
So, that's all I'm going to say about that. While it won't be just like I planned, I'm not going to be somebody who complains about going to the beach for a week. It will even be sort of exciting, to do this without Kurt's help. We'll be a family of explorer women, like Amelia Earhart, except without going mysteriously missing, and possibly with or without aviator sunglasses and those earflap hats.
I have to admit, though, that I'm already planning to cry as we pull away in the rental car, watching Kurt's waving silhouette getting smaller and smaller in the rear view mirror. A trip to the beach without Daddy? Sometimes it's hard loving somebody as much as we love Daddy. Sometimes it's hard to get through the whole day without seeing him. Sometimes we drive into the city and wait outside of his work just so that we can drive him home instead of waiting for him to get there.
He's just that good.
But, a little, empty island and a balcony overlooking the ocean is pretty good, too. I'm going to do my best to just let this be happy.