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Today is Day 15 of my modified Juice Fast, which I wrote about here and here.
For the past 14 days I have eaten fruits and vegetables and nothing else. I've been juicing 2 times per day. I've figured out that I have a food sensitivity that was causing joint pain and irritability, which cleared up about three days into my fast.
Also, my skin is so clear and glowing and gorgeous.
Overall, it's been pretty awesome.
I have to admit that I'm kind of losing my excitement, though. I have to admit that the idea of eating another big salad kind of makes me want to barf. I have to admit that I made fajita veggies with tamari and hot sauce last night, and they tasted so salty to me that I actually DID barf.
The fact of the matter is that you can only eat piles of vegetables so many times in a row before everything starts to make you faintly ill. Just thinking about cauliflower turns my stomach.
I need a boost of confidence.
For the first week of the fast, the mere fact that I was actually DOING IT was enough to keep me going. I felt so proud of myself for sticking with something so revolutionary. I felt like I was really taking control of things and getting my health back.
As time went on, I got used to the idea that I CAN TOTALLY DO THIS... and it's started to feel a little bit... well, I've already described how it's started to feel, with the barfing and what-not.
I'm still not in danger of giving up. I have no desire to throw away the last 15 days and eat a bunch of cookies, or whatever. I need to jack things up, though to get my zest for fasting back.
I've decided that for the next 5 days, I'm going to juice only, and make this a true Juice Fast. I think I've made myself sick enough of eating solid food that it won't be the same kind of challenge that it would have been 15 days ago. I've also already been through the panicky, headachey, skin-tingly detoxing phase, so I won't have that to deal with, on top of not being able to eat. I just feel like I'm in the right place, mentally, to take on 5 days of juicing only.
Wish me luck.
So, I don't think I've talked about my intentions for when my fast is over.
I am going to adopt a diet with a base of ungodly amounts of fruits and vegetables. They will be the bulk of what I eat. I'll also eat nuts and nut butters, beans and legumes, seeds, gluten free grains like quinoa, brown rice and buckwheat, healthy fats like coconut and olive oils, organic tofu and tempeh, nutritional yeast and spices. I am open to gluten free bread foods. (I found a recipe for gluten free pumpernickel that might be interesting.) I am also open to an occasional, disgustingly good dairy product, like the herbed goat cheese from the farmer's market. I am also planning on having a treat, like frozen yogurt with those weird little juice balls, once or twice a month.
And that's it.
I feel like sticking with this for so long has really made me evaluate the way I see food. It's become clear to me that, although I was already a vegetarian who ate more vegetables than the average person, I wasn't eating enough of them. It seems weird to me, now that I wouldn't consider vegetables to be the base of my diet, that I wouldn't eat them first, and accessorize with other foods.
This fast has also made me rethink the way I felt about treat foods. I didn't even know I was doing it, but I said yes, or at least okay, shrug to everything I felt like eating. If there was candy in our house, I would definitely have some. When we passed by the bulk cookie bin at Whole Foods and the girls started saying, "Cookies!" I would definitely pick one (or two or four) for myself. I ate half of Louisey's snow cones. I bought big, fluffy loaves of cinnamon swirl bread from the bakery. I just didn't think about sugar, before eating it. I knew that I ate too much of it, but I didn't see how permissive I was about it. I didn't understand how unbalanced I was about it. There was definitely sugar in my life every single day, and I'm over that.
I just feel like I see things differently, and I still have 15 days to go.
My goals for the second half of my fast are:
5 days/week of moderate cardio
More doing stuff I love, and want to do
More sunshine and swimming